Last day until doomsday

Here it is, Valentines Day. The day is making me cringe in a good way. I don't quite understand it though. For the last week or so I have been looking forward to it. This is not me usually I loathe the day and dread it. This year I want it to come and I feel like maybe this will be a day of change for the better. I feel like a robot that has been given a code that does not compute. I have made a card and a present for someone I have been seeing. It is completely cheesy and weird. I wish things like feelings were easy to understand and accept. Sorry this post is just my random thoughts but i had to get them out there.